RIGHT NOW, AT THIS MOMENT, IN MY LIFE.

A struggle with time uncertainty and vulnerability!

My focus will be on my personal experiences and struggles, as well as my understanding of being vulnerable to the events and decisions of other people in my life at this moment. I will also share my way of dealing with these situations, which have taught me so much.

I am once again faced with vulnerability in my life at this moment. Acknowledging the fact that something is wrong and being unable to do anything about it. I am utterly vulnerable. I have to wait for the doctor's decision. I must wait for more testing. Unlike when my car broke down, I would find out what was wrong and fix it myself. This time I cannot fix it, I am completely vulnerable to someone else's experience and opinion.

It's not worth crying or worrying about things you can't control. I have the choice to wake up and weep in misery. Think about what can happen and what can't happen over and over until I get completely sick or depressed. So what do I do? I embrace it. Every morning, I get up and meditate. I work on my hobbies and keep my mind extremely busy. If I'm tired, I sleep. I try my best not to think negatively. When negative thoughts come creeping around, I turn on the TV and watch a movie or stand-up comedy.

In addition, I have allowed one person to gain a deeper understanding of me. I'm sure they need a friend as much as I need one too. It was challenging to allow others to get close to me after my poor experiences with friendship and trust. Getting too close, not wanting to appear weak or needy. Over time, I've come to understand that vulnerability is actually a strength. It takes courage to open up and let others in, to share our true emotions and experiences.

By embracing vulnerability, we open up the door to deeper connections and understanding with others. It enables us to develop empathy, grow, and learn. If you find yourself struggling with vulnerability, know that you're not alone. It's a common human experience, and starting to embrace it is never too late. Keep in mind that vulnerability is not a sign of weakness, but rather a testament to our strength and authenticity.

"Don't ever stop trying"