USELESS WORDS

Trying to figure you out not wanting to be turned down by here that's why I always leave the way that I do that's never ending in that right words I can't seem to put employees staring at a blank page in front of me penetrating my hands to man feels like I am avoiding reality and lately I'm annoying myself realizing that I am such a mess longing for things to stop falling apart in to start falling together and still coming for so long I'm scared I don't know how to deal with emotions again don't want to get into my feelings because it always ends the same things don't work out in the pain comes stronger than before I'm too good with good-byes tears don't even come to my eyes no more here darling let me hold the door for you I'm not the same girl that I used to be so many like Downs wrong turns and retakes on every stupid mistake back and forth destructive behaviors scars that I am to blame for gave everything that I had now there's nothing left of me that I stare back at me pull the trigger ink dried on the floor