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The Silent Guns
Age 6 - 56, the decades 1950-2000
-- This is one poem, in an autobiographical series of poems, I posted here at WriteSpike. Go to my stories section for others. They are in chronological order. --
What passing-bells for these who die as cattle?...
No prayers nor bells...save the choirs,
The shrill, demented choirs of wailing shells
~ Wilfred Owen, "Anthem for Doomed Youth" ~
(killed November 4, 1918, during fighting in northern France)
In 1918
on the eleventh hour
of the eleventh day
of the eleventh month
the guns stopped firing
a soldier said
the silence was deafening
he was not being poetic
later my father came home to a normal world
that could no longer return to normal for him
caught between bouncing grenades
rolling down concrete steps
caught between the split second
that it took for his lieutenant
to toss them back
as they flashed and filled the air
with smoke and shards -
my father had been captured
at home, his capture remained
he had trouble holding a job, a marriage
finishing what he started
in New York
surrounded by rush hour crowds
he heard the scream
of an express subway
and dove down onto the platform
thinking that the screeching rails
were incoming shells
his family called him the 'artful dodger'
behind his back
he would have been better off
if he had lost an arm or a leg
but with no scars
it was left to me
like the Rime of the Ancient Mariner
he recited his story over and over
and I learned it word for word
as I grew up
too young I could only sense
the wrongs that had been done to him
ones that he, himself, did not understand
so the shadow of that war
also marked me
with nightmares of mud, poison gas,
and corpses in No Man's Land
as I looked for answers
far into my adult years
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Pretty intense Rick. I think I've already said it, but your poems are like movie scenes. They're filled with emotion and intense experiences. Keep it up!
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War takes away our idealistic young men and, if they are lucky, returns to us traumatized men that are never properly taught how to cope. I wish the VA had the means to do a better job helping our veterans deal with PTSD. It's so sad how many veterans are lost to suicide. Great poem! Thanks for sharing!
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The VA is trying but we have a long way to go. I believe it is still seen today by the military as a flaw in a person's makeup.
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What a nice way to compare what you saw then with what you know now. As kids we do have that insight. I love the snippets of the characters and scenes of your life.
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You said it just right. In this poem I am writing from these two points of view -- what I knew then and what I know now. His story would stay with me all my life.
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The beauty of poetry is that the author can go from a concrete specific story or event and then suddenly go to an illusionary poetic sphere and back again -- the more jolting (if appropriate) the better. I believe that gives it a power no other art form has.