THINKING

I was thinking of a video that I stumbled onto. It was a man in tears. The only thing that came to mind was "what can I say to him to help him understand that he's not alone" that all he needs to do is reach out and get professional help. I decided to send him a message to encourage something positive. He replied and thanked me. At that point, I felt relieved to know that he was fine, but my thoughts did not stop there. I struggle with thoughts about my experience, and I want to help those who suffer the way I have. I can't show them what I've seen or learned because I know that everybody has their struggles to overcome. And you can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. I know because I was one of them. So, here I am laying down trying to go back to the time when I was lost and trying to figure out what I was thinking and how did I get here and if sharing my experience can't help someone reach out before they make a mistake. I have encountered other beautiful young souls struggling with mental health, and it breaks my heart. I hope that I can reach some of them and help them realize that there is hope, all they have to do is reach out and never stop fighting. Furthermore, if you're one of those beautiful souls that are struggling in silence this is for you, know that you're not alone you have a purpose here on this earth you don't see it right now because you are in a dark hole that feels like it keeps caving in. Yes, I know you prefer not to get up, you would rather not eat. You wish you would just stop existing, nobody cares, no one would notice, right? But you're wrong, that's all in your head. You just haven't found the right people to confide in, and I know it's hard because of the judging. Do they really care? Oh, they're just doing it for the money! Oh, they're just feeling sorry for me! Oh, they think I want attention! Not everyone is the same, you just need not quit looking for the right therapist or the right facility that will treat you with dignity and respect. I spent part of my youth searching for the right place. But I couldn't find it because I wasn't ready. So please don't make the same mistake I did, don't wait and waste part of your life on hold feeding this darkness.

Take it from someone who has survived suicide attempts sexual assault/poverty and drugs child verbal and physical abuse, and finally a car accident. I continue to work on myself to this day and if I can help encourage or inspire any of those young beautiful souls with my blogs I will continue to share my journey and my experiences.

I say, "get up" go find your purpose!

-jb1writes

It doesn't matter who you are, you can be an actor and still suffer in silence. This new message is for everyone!

National suicide Hotline.
988
just remember these 3 numbers because your life
is important.